blogger's cooperating tonight

so I can log in tonight.. couldnt earlier in the day. of course. cant possibly work for me when I have stuff fresh in my mind to write about.

Got a call today on the machine to call my Dr. back. so I called and she told me my B12 is low and I need to start coming in once a month for shots. I hate shots, but if this will help me then Im all for it. Googled a little about it and sounds like it might help with my lack of energy.. thats a plus that I could handle! I really could sleep the entire day if given the chance. I really struggle to get out of bed each day..and then I get back into bed after the kids leave and its another struggle to get up again. If I happen to not crawl back into bed, its a struggle to stay awake wherever I am.
so, we'll see if this makes any difference in that. Google also said some people use it for weight loss.. though I think they meant the energy will make it so you will be able to exercise to lose the weight.. can I just say that for the first time in forever, I dont need it to lose weight.
I cannot believe I just wrote that. but see, I need to stay at the weight Im at right now.. need to maintain for now so I can get surgery to remove this extra skin I have.. . and looking at the numbers, I know Im at a good point.. even if my brain doesnt wrap around that fact when I see myself. If I was reading this at my fat weight, I would totally be jealous and also think whoever was writing this was bragging.. IM SO NOT trying to brag. I havent gotten to a point where I *would* brag about my size. dont know that I would want to get to a place like that.
There are days I do wish I could just be mentally fine with where I am, wherever that may be.


am I making any sense???


ok so I just want the B12 to help with my energy LOL

what else..

Christine from a board Im on posted about this website.. www.theletteredcottage.blogspot.com and now Im hooked on it! I read the entire blog.. every post. I didnt watch her videos though. I really want to be able to decorate like that... I want to see some thing at a flea market and be able to see it transformed into something cool.
although anytime I look at perfect homes, I have to wonder.. where do they have all their 'stuff'?? am I the only one with stuff?? like papers.. kid papers.. bills.. mail.. heck, where is their bread ?? you see the kitchen and nothing on the counters.. where do people keep bread??? theres no bread box on the counter.
and what about dirty clothes? I see no dirty clothes in the laundry rooms, and no hampers anywhere.. and no dirty clothes on floors.. so where is it all??
kleenex? am I the only one that has boxes of kleenex in every room? I dont see kleenex in perfect houses.
books? nope, just the books used to decorate with.
bathrooms with no medicine cabinets.. so where is the medicine??
where are the telephones and tv remotes?? and the wii???

am I really the only one out there with stuff????
will I ever have a 'pretty' house with all my stuff??

and yet, I love looking at those houses.


Im craving some belgian chocolate. I should have gone to the chocolate store in Kaiserslautern today.. but I didnt. Its better that I didnt.. but I still want some.

Trace's class is doing a craft project next week for Valentines day.. and the teacher asked me and another mom to come up with something. So, the other mom suggested 'painting on soap' for the parents gift. hmm teacher liked the idea and is picking up the Ivory soap. I will be helping them make woven heart basket thingys to hold the soap. Couldnt come up with much else.. theyre made out of construction paper so hopefully itll hold the soap ok.. Ive never done it even though I suggested it.. so I need to practice soon. haha.
but heres my thing.. and I dont mean this in a rude way.. Im just so very curious..
if you paint on soap, wouldnt the paint come off and onto your hands or body when you use the soap? will the paint end up staining your skin?? and really.. I hate to say it but this bar of soap is probably going to sit in my bathroom awhile and eventually get tossed.. seems like a lot of kid projects for gifts end up that way. I feel bad, but what am I supposed to do with some of these things? so my question for you moms.. would you want a bar of painted soap from your kid for Valentines day? guess Ill see next week what this is really all about.

I need to do my taxes. We should get money back .. which is always nice.. and its usually a good enough amount for our summer trips.. but this year? I keep putting it off.. I hate trying to get all my SU stuff together for it. I really need to keep better track of my paperwork for SU. .. this is part of my 'stuff' I mentioned earlier LOL

I need a haircut. I hate getting my hair cut. I dont know what I want done to it. I can never find a cut that works for me. I must have a funny shaped face or something? I dunno. I also want to be able to wash it, blow dry it and go. Im not into all the curling and straightening on a daily basis. once in awhile is fine.. but everyday? nope. Back in High School, I curled every morning.. and I also did makeup every morning.. now? not so much. Im just too lazy I think.
but anyways, I need a decent haircut idea to take to the hair lady. any suggestions?

and does anyone but me wonder who exactly Im talking to when I ask these things? Im not sure how many people read this.. although I found out today that Marla does.. so now I know about 2 people! :)

My mean scary chihuahua - Pepper- hates to have her nails cut.. but she desperately needs them done. I hate doing it. she fights me. its awful. So I read about this as seen on tv thing called Pedi Paw? i think? pedi something.. I am thinking about ordering it. basically you are using a battery operated file to get the nails down. I have to wonder if Pepper would do better with it though.. it cant be any worse than right now- it takes 2 of us and we have to cover her head with a towel and hold her down all while trying to clip the nails. what a pain.

Im almost afraid to stop typing.. I might not be able to log in again for a week.. and what if I close out of blogger and then I remember something I wanted to say??? yikes.

ok Im done for now.. although I am planning on posting something else after this.. but it needs its own post. :)